had a le fong hui mtg this morning...we discussed abt our new plans for this coming year...hmm...alots of new ideas..n fun outing....hope everything will work out well...
after the mtg..i went shopping with my mother...hehe...finally bought a shoes , top...so hapy today..i saw a dress...(those new yr style)...i like it alot n my mother also say nice...but it was super expensive loh...$50 smtg leh..bu she de buy...
he nt yet reply my msg since tue liao...but he did came online to play friendster loh..he even gt time to change his photos...y no time to jus to write mi a msg..i dun noe wat did i do or say wrong again...i really dun wish to give up on this relationship...he asked mi whether gt any guy after mi or nt..i said yea..but i gt told him tat i reject that guy coz my heart only love him n no other guy..i dun noe wat i reply is right or wrong....i m getting deeper n deeper in this relationship....it is really nt easy to maintain a relationship when the two person r so far apart,..in different countries....somemore we cant talk on phone...i really miss him alot...but i will try my best to maintain this relationship...
gers..maybe u all will think tat its not worth it...but i jus cant control my heart....maybe i like this like ba..i need to meet some da ji then i will give up ba....
hmmas for the cookies i made on friday ...my parents said that the pineapple tarts r nicer than the chocolate chip cookies...haha..dun noe y..haha..i will try harder next time...

baking cookies at hm today....i tried out the pineapple tarts recipe that deb gave mi n did chocolate chips n nuts cookies too....hmm..nt bad...quite nice..bt i still like the ones that i did last time..dun noe y cant achieve the same quality...
then now working loh...sian..tomorrow gt mtg with uncle peter.,....sometimes i really dun noe how..i need to give in to friends n on the other side i hav pressure from the uncles...so confused sometime..deb..u r right...i m too soft hearted...in order to sucess in big business i cannot be so soft hearted ....i need to try..to gong shi fen ming...its really quite diffcuilt.
pc..thanks for ur help yesterday night...i was super pai sei loh...now so many ppl know abt it....i really dun noe how to face him next time i go work liao...all the while i only treat him as big brother loh....think next time he cook sometime for mi.,..i cant accept it liao..or else ppl will mistaken more...he still dare to ask y i black face...i black face is all coz of him loh...still dare to ask..luckly darren was not around ...or else i will feel more pai sei..
S n deb...yesterday i received a surprised call..its from joe..i was so surprised loh..then we chated for a while...haha...nt bad he still remember mi..
sorry..deb..yesterday we cant sit down with u to eat...dun noe y suddenly it so busy..then somemore the time on the system there is slow de...then we need to follow the time there to clock out.,...so pai sei...u take care of yourself k..

had my basic theory test today...it was quite ok...but i think i gt 2 wrong liao..really hope can pass..then can learn my practical when i finish school...
then i went to parkway with deb..sorry deb.. i was ver tired when i reached there...i even hav a headache now...nt enough sleep lah....
To deb:
dun think so much k..since in the first place u hav told yourself that he cant be the one for you ..then dun think so much k...jus treat him as friends....i know its not easy..bt as times goes by u will get over de..now u nt yet get ver deep...still can come out...
To S:
i think u also tired of the ice cream....mi too..ger..lets work together n we will get over soon..then we need to start to write our report liao...dun noe know to let V know the importance of the micro test..hope we can do a good test next week..
he reply my msg liao..he ask gt any guy after mi or nt..haha...dun noe is scare or hope i will go find other guy..haha..

hmm..lets start from yesteday...was at hm from the day time..went for the student party at RAV at night..it was fun..they played soem games n we sa bao our lecturers...haha...mr tan went hm quite early...bt as for mdm lau n mrs lim..they dance with us....n join in the fun with us...i really long time never dance liao..the last time was at 2yrs ago..last few times went to pub bt only sing n drink never dance....haha.fedah...robin was so high n active loh...he really dance well but too extreme hot liao...it realy shock mi to c him so hot..haha...saw soem nice looking guys there...bt nothing lah..jus c c only..as for our course guys..huai shan n chin shuan are bith good dancers..haha...the gers also...really had a fun time...
went to snow city today with jean, kai xin n my brother..coz jean had a dicount coz of her birthday..n we each juz need to pay $3.50 instead of $12...so we went there.....it was so fun there loh..bt was super freezing cold..our nose, mouth n ears n buts were nump...haha...the sliding was fun loh..we tried different style of coming down..haha...even took photos there..
the science exhibtions was interesting also...hmm..maybe can bring the le fong hui kids go next time ...for outing..n also can go with sharon,deb , glenns ,, ting...
after that i n jean came back to tampines to shop for new year clothes n she shop for her contact lense...jean ..i think u will look ver pretty with contact de..
finally i bought one top from samuel n keith shop...hmm..jus a normal casual top..can even wear to sch..bt only suitable to go with jeans or jeans material skirt...saw a ver nice skirt but its $30 loh...i like it alot..bt still deciding whether to but or nt...quite k...then my mum said i gt alot of skirt liao....some still seldom wear..hmmmm...she is right...maybe i should search for a nice top to suit my skirts that i have at hm...
jean..u really hav grown up alot since u went in poly..a good sign...thanks for all ur advice today..it really help mi alot...
thanks for ur company today..

went shopping with deb n sharon today..ver sorry deb i was ver late ....
we shop from orchard to bugis..in the end still did nt buy anything..so sian ..loh..i saw one white top which sharon said ver nice at bugis vaillage..then i thought maybe walk around c first..then go back..but at last did nt went back..then i saw one white top with flower print at this fashion..bt dun hav my size..sian..saw one quite nice looking shoes at far east bt did nt buy laos..so sian..everytime thought theat may c something nice somewhere..bt in the end did nt..so wasted never buy..

finally my term tests ended yesterday...happy..bt not as excited as last time...coz still muz go sch n do my MP...
went to sch to do my MP today..she came n help bt...her mother called her n asked her to go hm ..coz her dog was lost..dun noe wat happen..hope she had found her dog now..i can understand her feeling..coz i also hav dog myself..
we also weight the 50kg of ingredients with zhong xian n MJ for the mass production...wah..its alot..
then pc , xw n deb.,..taught us how to prepare the micro agars that we need..thanks gers..actually its was quite easy ..its jus the autocave time is ver long..
this sem..i n S gt closer with xiao wei n pui ching...maybe coz they r the same MP gp with deb..n i n pc worked together during SIP...
hmm..today did nt manage to go east coast...coz we end around 4 smtg...then i working at 6pm today..pai sei gers..cant go today..
bt..we still going for shopping of course this fri..so excited..finally can shop again..bt dun noe wat new year clothes to buy this year..
tomorrow is jean's 18th birthday..Happy Birthday sis....n we r going with u to snow city this sun...hehe..so fun...we seldom go out ....

had 2 tests today...csas was still alright..but FSm i thought i could do it but.sadly...i apply wrong ans to the last 15marks ques...i was ver confused at tat time..how...i dun wan to fail my fav subject...maybe i m a person who will know ow to apply to real work life bt nt in paper..i dun think Balan they all will refer to this theory when doing their inventory n other staff..its all depend on experience de loh...
yesterday..deb n shar came to my house to study for FSm..my puppy was so excited tat she keep jumping on them..pai sei huh gers..hehe..she ver active de..
hmm..waiting for tests to finish then can do all my chinese new year cookies liao..so excited n fun..
after FSM test today...mr dawis told us that all the ice cream MP gps need to do a mass production of ice cream for the open house n TP 15th anniversery...sian..liao..our term break will be gone again...
gers..so exicted..can go shopping this fri liao..i need to buy alot of things...clothes..belt..shoes..
then on wed maybe going east coast to rollar balte....muz learn hehe..tat time learn half way..

today went to sch jus for a 2hours lecture....so sian...but today's lec is still nt so bad...quite interesting....
deb..u still hav butterfly in ur stomach right..haha...u gt another chance to go there again..haha...on the 26 of Jan...
hmm...so excited abt next sat party...will be mtg all the food technologies from different schools...n the lectuers also....long time never go drink liao...n hav fun..hav been stress for few months...finally can relax a while after term tests....then can go shopping during term break liao...haha...buy new year clothes..n going to bake new year cookies again...haha..

today went to sch for MP meeting....we analysis the results from the sensory ...n abt wat tests to do for our ice cream..everything goes quite smoothly today...n even discuss abt our prom night..haha..so excited...
n now working at IT ....
TO deb:
wah..u muz be ver ver happy that day...happy till u cannot sleep..haha....ger..i think u still gt feeling for him..but u think tat u already treat him as a friend..maybe u still ver zai hu da...so hows things going on between u n andy?...he still talk abt his ex..?....then did u stay contact with teh handsome guy u met that day...?wah ger..nt bad huh..meet so many guys..nvm...make friend with them first loh..then c how things work out....slowly choose...
we long time never go out liao..muz go out one day during term break k...haha..rememebr the 26/1 k....u can go to the place that u like on that day liao...hehe..u now where right?oh yah..y i cant type msg on ur tag board de?
To S:
luckly today she was still ok..did contribute smtg.....thanks for ur comments for the cookies n chocolate cake....i also still trying different recipes..so that i can keep a book of all gd n tried out recipes...
dun worry ..tomorrow...i will help u de..for the waitress part....its quite easy de...
gers..i m thinking y nt we jus go near by countries for the tour after exams..then we work...then at the end of the year then we go furtehr far country ..k...coz of budget ..as we still need to spend quite a sum of money for our garuation night....k...wta u all think...

baking chocolate cheese cake now....hehe..dun noe why thesefew days keep baking foods...cookies n cakes...made chocolate chips cookies on sat n sun...n let the coffee club ppl tried..they all said ver nice..thanks...some said that first batch nicer some said the second oen...haha...
jus now S was at my house..we cooked cauliflower soup n sweet corn flitters..for fsm..coz we need to take the photos for the dishes that we did that day...its was fun..long time never cook together with a friend at my house liao..
term tests is coming next week liao...hope faster finish n can go out with S n deb to buy chinese new year clothes liao..hehe...so fast chinese new year coming liao...

baking chocolate cheese cake now....hehe..dun noe why thesefew days keep baking foods...cookies n cakes...made chocolate chips cookies on sat n sun...n let the coffee club ppl tried..they all said ver nice..thanks...some said that first batch nicer some said the second oen...haha...
jus now S was at my house..we cooked cauliflower soup n sweet corn flitters..for fsm..coz we need to take the photos for the dishes that we did that day...its was fun..long time never cook together with a friend at my house liao..
term tests is coming next week liao...hope faster finish n can go out with S n deb to buy chinese new year clothes liao..hehe...so fast chinese new year coming liao...

jus came back from cheng ee(my cousin) birthday party..(6yrs old)...had a fun time there...bbq,,,...n so call renewal with the other relatives.........
worked 2-6pm today..was still ok..nt so busy..had a fun time there....more n more new part timers joining....all gers...n all quite pretty...haha...the guys who r single in cc gt a chances liao..haha...
done our second section of sensory on last fri...quite succeful..many ppl could detect that its was a honey dew ice cream...
doing next mon for the last batch of vanilla ice creamm...haha...again..so sian....but no choice....
oh yah..
i signed up for the food technology club...n will be going for a party on th e22jan...deb also going..deb ..haha.mi so excited to go...muz be ver fun de.......

done the sensory evluation for our batch 5 vanilla ice cream yesterday....it was nt a smooth one...i m unhappy with someone...(deb n S ...u shld noe who i m talking abt)...........
she keep rushing ...the ice cream nt freeze back then she went to find new group of panelist liao...the things were all very messy loh...then Mdm Lau was quite nt happy with us...coz she hao xin inform us tat our ice cream will be contanminted with the brownis in the freeze ...then i say oh..i m thinking of using another freezer..but V jus gave Mdm Lau a face n dun care wat she said..she did the same to evelyn.....she is alwasy like that loh...i m so scared tat her attuide towards the lecturers will affect i n S grade.............so unfair...then in the morning....when i called her...its around 10 smtg...she was at home...then our sensory section is at 12pm..then we nt yet bought the tasting spoon yet...i ask her go giant to c gt or nt..then she gave all kinds of excuses that wat NTUC dun hav there sure dun hav de..cant she jus go n c or find for us..at that time we gt so many things to do in sch loh...then i lazy to quarrel with her..then i jus said nvm ..n i n S went opp n search the things all around....
things were nt as bad as yesterday...we jus went there to pack the ice cream into small cup n actually wanted to carry out the sensory de..but the ice cream melted ..so cant let ppl taste ..muz freeze it first...jun jia n shaun n one of their friend came to help...but they waited quite long..coz we though it will harden within half n hr..but it did nt...so we pai sei to let them wait so long..then we jus take out the ice cream from the tub n scope agin n let them taste...
so we only had 2 panelists today...haha......
ok..enough of the sensory thing...
on mon . ...i worked 6-11 at siglap....Darren work opening that day..10-6....at first i though he will went hm after work..but...surprisely....at around 7smtg he is still around...then i asked him..u still nt going back meh...he said he counting n packing stocks..oh ok...so we did talk for some time still that day...then he said bye to mi...n went in the office..i thought he really going back hm liao..but...after some time...he was wearing his hm clothes walking out to the cashier there...he was talking to us there..then he stand at the bar counter there for very long...n talked to the cooks n mike...i was there also waiting to serve the food..then mike said smtg to him...in a joking way.." darren u waiting for shirley to finish work huh?"(in chinese)...i was so pai sei at that moment..but he ans mike saying.."huh...wat u say...i only heard smtg wat ly de..."...haha..darren u huh....then i jus walked off..to do other things...luckily..after tat he still gt talked to mi.nt so pai sei...
oh no...i long time never hav this kind of feeling liao....dun noe is gd or nt gd,..sometime i m scare tat as day by day pass by..i will forget andrew(my dear)...but...some time i think..wat if he found some one better over there at his work place leh..i also dun noe...all these days....i meet alot of ppl at coffee club..i saw 1 guy whom look every close to andrew...at a moment i really though that guy was andrew......but i keep telling myself tat no..he is now working oversea.....how i wish i can dun think abt all this...but...hiaz..jus cant control my feelings...wat if i slowly develop feelings for darren....some more....in the same working place n we r always talking there n with jokes also...
k...todays' blog too long liao...haha..k..stop here....

finally 2004 had came to an end n today is the starting of a new year...hmm...let mi think wats my goals for 2005...
1. get my driving lisence by aug 2005...
2. get my diploma n either go overseas to study or get a job..haha..on i m 80% sure that i m going into food service...
3. serve god...make le fong hui into a good children tuan ti...our choir will be more united....
4. be a stronger person..esp in relationship n career...
k..hope to fulfill my goals in this 2005...
was working these two days...even though at some time it was ver busy...but had a fun time there...dun noe why...i feel that i m getting well along with darren....maybe coz he is a easy going person...we seems like gt lots of things to say..actually he is nt bad lah...c how things goes...this kind of thing hard to say...but gt one thing i m surprised is he gt the same thinking as mi...(abt couples shld nt hug n kiss at public....) coz i also dun like to hug n kiss with my bf in the public....
yesterday night went to ai ling house for steamboat after my work.. at first we (teh young ones) were quite bored tehre but ....we played poker card games..n slowly the fun was there liao...we played till everyone left n then we felt so pai sei..then all of us went to my house n continue playing n watched the coraling tat my brother filmed...hmm.my last day of 2004 was nt bad...
going to Azman's wedding tomorrow....dun noe how will it be like..never go to a malay wedding b4....quite excited...haha....
To S n deb...:
he replied my friendster msg on the 30/12...so happy tat day...ger...u knew how happy i was tat day right..at library...wah...so happy till dun noe wat to reply him back....happy tat at least he till call mi dear....if our msg maintain till he comes back..i m sure...we will be like last time again..
really miss him alot...hope to c him...hope he is doing fien at work there...
actually i did tried to know other guys..n did went out with one guy...but i still thinks of andrew even i was out with that guy...i felt so fair tat him....
beside telling u two all this..
i also wan to really thank u two to being my best friends these 3yrs...we had went though alots of happiness n down periods,....n it was always u two by my side to help n comfort mi....hope our friendship will be forever...deb..we will miss u when u r overseas de..muz keep in contact k....