wake up early today..coz not sure wat time should i report for PDM..finally gt the ans..that is our interview is at 11.15pm..haha..hope it ges well later..
working tonight 7-11pm..last week whole week never wrk..hope nt much changes..haha..
went out yesterday with my friend...hmm..nt bad..had fun..n finally gt to watch the movie that i hav been wannting to watch.."I do, I do"a craping movie..haha..the story nt so gd...
went for the new yr dinner last sat..the food were not bad....but the entertainment was nt so gd..haha...said wat its organise by youth PAP..i dun c many youth there leh....
nt much to write today...sian...i m confused of alot of things now..hiaz..

finally done 80% of our MP report liao...yesterday ..sharon came to mmy house to do the results n discussion part...we asign V to do the adract , intro, obj, materials n methods parts..hope she can do it ...dun last min tell us she dun noe how to do..ONG!!!its super unfair...we rushed our part night n day..n she even dun borther to meet us after sch yesterday..even can tell mi ..she gt nothing to do so she went hm earlier..she even went off at 10smtg..b4 PDM lec finish loh...she make up till ver nice yesterday/...look like going out loh...i super bu gan yan....yesterday we think till our head wanna crack liao for the discussion part ..dun wan to talk abt her liao..ye jiang ye qi
today ...i did nt go for the NAPFA...its super early loh...then i also never train..at all..so no point lah..forget it..
hmm gt the new yr dinner by the YP tonight..at Mount Faber SAFRA club ballroom..till now i still dun noe wat to wear..asking deb now for some advice ..haha..
things was too unfair for mi..my brother gt to learn driving bt i dun hav..i mean my parents gave him money to learn ..in the mouth say wat..no money dun learn lah..no money learn for wat...but at last still gave him money to learn..for mi leh..from the yr that i can learn driving(18yr old) till now..they still said the same thing...they asked mi to learn when i start working(finish poly n work full time) say wat learn for wat..gt no $ to buy car also..so that means i need to pay myself to learn driving.if nt that day my brother said he wan to go take the basic theory test n i followed allow.. i then gt to take loh..if nt ..dun noe when then they let mi go take the test...they so pian xin..from young till now they r like this...alwasy think that my brother noe everything n i dun noe...since like this ..then dun wan mi lah...jus hav him as ur child can liao lah..
SO UNFAIR!!!
they always treat his gf so good..but for mi leh...always say this n that....they dun even noe hoe i feel at all...they dun even noe all the prob i hav in sch , in relationship..
sometimes i felt so depressed...i m nobody to them...

went to sch today for MP discussion...was nt very happy with it...did nt conclude much also loh..she keep thinking that we still gt next week to drag till..dun she noe that we still hav other quiz to study....when we wan her to rush she dun wan..when she slowly do she rush..really opposite from us loh...she seems like rushing to somewhere like that...haiz..the more i talked abt her the more i nt happy with her...
when i gt hm..i intend to do my report..bt i m really too tired to do..i sleep for a while then its time to come to work liao..time fly so fast..
its FSM lab tomorrow again...so happy..i m always looking forward to FSM lab ver week..coz can cook mah...hehe

finally finished my csas interview...i was so nervous this morning loh..even more nervous when its 11.30am..coz going to be my turn soon...when i gt in...i was so so super nervous loh...then the first question the sharon ong asked mi was..wat quality do u think a manager should hav...wah..so i ans a manager should hav a leadership quality so to be able to lead his staffs..and also able to handle customers complains , conflicts between staffs... then she also asked do u think whether wat u studies is revalence to this job..then i talked abt FSM loh..esp the practical session..she even asked wat prob do i encounter...how i handle them..then she did asked abt wat should a manager do to train new staffs...alice ong even asked mi abt storage condition...hiaz..dun noe wat i said is correct or nt..haha..i think should be ok ba...
today piss off with her again..we already told her thatwe redoing our chem test today at 9am..then around 9 smtg she msg mi say that she need to go down to ntu coz they want to meet her abt the uni thing...ok then she go..she said she willl call us when she reach sch..then around 11am..she called S saying that she on the way liao..at that time we already done our chem test waiting for it to dry to get the result..then doing the colur thing..ok then we thought nvm at least she gt come to record results better than nothing..but when we finished everything.even recording the results for both tests..n i had finished my csas..she nt here yet..then we called her to c where is she to get back my log book..then she said wat she is at the library..wah lao..said wat when reach sch will call us bt never loh..then i said i wan to meet her to gt back my log bk...she said wat she nt yet ok yet need another 10 more mins..wat the log book already with her for nearly 1 week n now still tell mi wat need 10 more min..then we went up to find her..saw her photocopying my log book..page by page..we r so angry by then loh...then when she come out..she even lie to us that she was photocopying wat the report to hand in to ntu de..wat crap lah u...we were really super pissed off with her loh..then we went to talk to dawis abt it..really cant stand it anymore..then dawis said acutally he already can c it liao..b4 we talk to him...but dun noe y i still feel like redoing my log book even though he said nvm dun need..i feel so unseure...bt at least after talking to dawis ..i felt better...
S n deb: really need to thank u ...for being by my side all this while...no matter is sch work or relationship thing..as for S ..luckly i hav u to be with mi to do the MP..if nt dun noe how..i noe sometimes i m abit impatient n bad mood..i wil tryto control myself ...really never regert knowing u two..so sad...deb will be going overseas to study soon liao...will miss u so much..remember the up n down we hav went though together these 3yrs..
as for relationship ..thanks for giving mi ur listening ear...since i had made my own decision then if anything happen ..i need to accept it n face it...since this is the path tat i hav choosen...jus hope that u all will still give mi some moral support...
Ting n glenna...: felt that we had drift apart..maybe coz of proj n proj....hope that we will get back soon ...after all our reports n ur exams...hope everything r fine ....

today was TP's open house n i n sharon was involves in making of buns..it was fun ...i like baking...then u noe wat mdm lau said smtg which made mi n fedah felt so surprised...she said that coffee club is looking for our course graduates..so surprised loh..haha..maybe can really consider working there liao...
wah..the ppl came all at one time de loh..till there was not enough buns for them..we made 3 batches of the buns..then the last batch was for us..hehe..with mango sauce de...haha...i even gt from Mdm lau the recipe loh..haha..can bake at hm liao...
wah..this week i every night nt at hm..from mon to thurs work..then tomorrow hav a new year dinner...so tiring..
ever since that day we met again n he explain to mi everything...now i dun feel so uneasy when he dun msg mi liao..coz now i understand how he thinks liao...
gers:u all may think y m i giving in so much to him...hmm..maybe love is really blind ba...haha..but i still wanna thank u all for being by my side when i m down...even if i hav make the wrong decision..i hav to face it myself loh..since this is the path i hav choosen...

today was TP's open house n i n sharon was involves in making of buns..it was fun ...i like baking...then u noe wat mdm lau said smtg which made mi n fedah felt so surprised...she said that coffee club is looking for our course graduates..so surprised loh..haha..maybe can really consider working there liao...
wah..the ppl came all at one time de loh..till there was not enough buns for them..we made 3 batches of the buns..then the last batch was for us..hehe..with mango sauce de...haha...i even gt from Mdm lau the recipe loh..haha..can bake at hm liao...
wah..this week i every night nt at hm..from mon to thurs work..then tomorrow hav a new year dinner...so tiring..
ever since that day we met again n he explain to mi everything...now i dun feel so uneasy when he dun msg mi liao..coz now i understand how he thinks liao...
gers:u all may think y m i giving in so much to him...hmm..maybe love is really blind ba...haha..but i still wanna thank u all for being by my side when i m down...even if i hav make the wrong decision..i hav to face it myself loh..since this is the path i hav choosen...

wah..these few days was so dame tired loh....maybe coz these few days was ver busy at coffee club...which cause us to run here n there...then muz wake up ver early in the morning to go sch...
went to sch to dicuss how to do for the PDM mock up ...then went for briefing for MP report n presentation n also graudation briefing...realised that the deadline for our MP is so super near loh...two more weeks to hand up the report n then hav to present liao...so stress..more n more interviews n handling of reports...
then did the chem test for our MP ice cream today..it was nt really a sucessful one...coz actually we hav 2 samples n 2 dulipate..butin the end coz 2 of it the ice cream went over to the flask which only should contain the solvents.,..then 1 of it was nt enough solutions to mix then cannot use also...at last only able to use one of the result..then no more time for us to redo liao..hiaz ..no choice loh..we did until 5.45pm..then i quickly rush here to work...so tired..my eyes r closing loh...

its hav been abt 4 days i hav nt update my blog liao..
he fly back on sat morning..yah.its so fast..cant celebrate vanlentine day with him..but nvm.able to met him up on thurs night n had such a long night talk and heard him said his zhen xin hua was already the best valentine present i hav ever get...
yesterday was valentine day.but i did nt go out.instead...i was working at coffee club....it was super busy last night loh...worse then sat night......nt only couples went to eat..families n friends also went..there was a young couple with a daughter ....they told their daughter that there will be candle light dinner...haha..so cute...they even ask mi whether could i get i candle for them so that can fake fake to their daughter..haha...n i did ..their daughter was so happy...
i was super tired after work yesterday...i only managed to clock out around 11.25pm..wah....
even though sometimes working there was tiring but..i jus dun feel like leaving the place n go find other part time job...i hav my friends there n the managers n supervisiors there r so nice to us...really better than working at eqx...
gers...how u gers hav been ..long time never get to talk to u all liao..i mean gers talk...esp ting n glenna...miss u gers...really miss the times we had in yr1 n 2..S n deb also...these few days we seldom talk liao...muz really zhen xi the times we hav together together now k..

wah..yesterday's work was really tired..coz it was super busy loh..the ppl come in n in ...no stop...it only slow down around 6 smtg...then balan gave mi his meal..n i ordered the gralic prawn noodles without the prawns but with fish n chip...but by the time it was ready.. my parents came to fetch mi liao..so i packed it up..n changed n went to look for my parents..
we went to a hawker center near the national stadium there to hav our dinner...then i look on my hp..n found a miss call...at that time we were abt to go off already..then u noe whose number i saw...it appear Andrew's name..i was to surprise to c that..i m thinkintg whether is it that his parents call or accidently press...then i msg back "hi.u call mi?"..they he called mi..it was his voice..i was so shocked to hear his voice...he came back since the new year eve..but then his phone was with his cousin all the while...then coz i did sent his those sweet msg..n i did nt know that his cousin using his phone..then when he gt the phone back from his cousin yesterday..his cousin laugh at him abt the msg..hehe...we talked for a while..he asked where m i ...then at the time mi n my family was abt to go to the river hong bao there..then he said want him to take cab down to meet mi or nt..fei hua..of course lah..we so long never c each other liao...he really did came down to look for mi...coz i did told my mother abt him b4..then i told her that he coming down..then he was so nervous loh...hehe...he said wat long time dun hav gf liao..so ver pai sei to meet my parents..scared dun noe wat to say to them..hehe...bt u did it my dear....jus greet them n say happy chinese new year can liao..then i asked him whether wan to go walk walk or nt..thebn he said he think we should pei my parents walk around first..coz he jus cam edown n then jus walk off like this nt so good,..then we pei them for a while n walked to my fatehr taxi there..then my mother ask ...u two wanna to go walk walk or go hm..then i told her go walk walk ba..then we said bye to my parents..
we walked to a stone seat near the bridge there n sit down n talk...we had a long night talk till around 11 smtg...we talked abt his work life at overseas there..n the things between us..the prob..n wat to do abt our relationship...he said he was being hurt few times by his ex deeply..n since then he has a fear of getting into a relationship..scare of being get hurt again..scare that if he put in too much feeling n effort n commitment n in the end get hurt...then he is a person whom dun like to be control by ppl, even his parents cant control him..use to being a single...he is also a person who dun like to report this n that to his gf de..n another prob is our religion prob..
then i asked him y then in the first place u want to start the relationship..he said the feeling was really there at that time...as times goes by he really feels that he hav fallen for mi truely..but coz of our religion prob n his fear of being hurt...he was nt sure n hesisted abt the relationship..which cause him to avoid mi n even thought that by doing this i will hated him n break off with him..but in the end i did nt..i even asked sharon to call him..this thing happen around last yr nov...actually until that time he was still unsure abt whether to continue the realationship or nt..when sharon called him that day..he knew that i was jus beside even though she told him i was nt there...he even knew that i cried at the monment...he said he was really being touch by mi at that time..thats y he did nt give sharon a sure ans to let her tell mi n dun wan her to give mi the wrong concept..n by that time he was abt to go overseas to work already..he did called mi b4 he went overseas..he said he knew that he has the responsibility to call mi to tell mi where he going esp for so long...
as for y when he is overseas ..he sometimes did reply my msg n sometimes did nt..he said that he was lazy n felt that he is reporting to mi his daily life matters...n he dun like to report his every action to his gf de..ok loh..i understand n respect him..coz i did hav this kind of feeling b4..i understand de...
at the first place when i asked him so wat u intend to do abt our relationship..he said "i made an effort to come down to meet u nt mtg my friends n even meet your parents.."u should noe the ans already right...hmm..yes of course..i can sense that u still zai hu wo..or else u will nt make an effort to call mi liao...jus that i wan to hear u say out ma..my dear...actually his friends asked him out for drinks..but he did nt go..instead he came down to meet mi..n even bring up the courage to meet my parents...i was touch..he said actually he is still confused n fear now...but he still loves mi which make him want to meet mi...maybe he is those kind of guys who think far..partical guy...
i m sure i will try my best to make him nt fear of getting into relationship anymore..n believe that god will help mi to do this n also to give mi the li liang to solve our religion prob...
after yesterday..i decided nt to give up so easily liao..i muz go for wat i want..unless he fall for someone or else i will nt give up de..

happy chinese new yr to everyone..had steam boat on new year eve..had a fun night...watched the countdown tv show..then..this morning had to wake up at 6am..coz mass is at 7.30am..its super early...
went visting this morning...this yr's visting was quite fun..coz most of the family gather together at our ku ku house..then we talked n watched tv..eat steam boat together...received lots of hong baos..
hehe..my voice is better now..thanks god..hope it dun get worse coz of those steam boat food...
actually i want to go to the river hong bao there..but my parents dun wan ..said every yr abt the same de..n they lazy to walk..so sian...tonight was so boring...
working tomorrow..hope nt too many ppl..haha...ver tired de...
S: i know i hav to make a decision myself ...n u all could only give mi advice....actually i m stilll confusing..sometimes i jus dun wan to think abt it..bt i noe i m jus avoiding the prob..n i should make a decision soon so that i will nt keep thinking abt it n affect my own things..i will think abt it de..ger..mayeb i jus dun dare to face the hou guo..maybe i jus fall too deep in already..
gers.do take care while eating those new yr cookies k..drink more water..i will also...enjoy yourself...

oh no..when i woke up this morning.i found that my voice is abit sore...die liao...new year coming n i m having sore thoart..bad voice n cant die the cookies..hope can be ok b4 new year...
so xin ku now...
baked cookies at hm today...hmm..nt bad....can give ppl liao..haha..
i cooked gong bao chicken for my family today...surprisely my brother like it..hmm..that means its good..coz his taste quite high de..haha..so happy..gt the man zhu gan....
balan was nt quite happy abt i called to ask my next week rooster around 11pm smtg last night...even though its darren who picked up the phone but i heard balan at the back saying y she call at this time..she should noe tat we r ver busy now..
jus now mike msg mi saying...
Mike: "seriously if u like darren i help fix up smtg"
Shir: "huh..y u will think tat i like him de?"
Mike: "Maybe ma...compatible also haha.."
Shir: "but i heard that he like someone else liao..kelly"
Mike:" is it? kelly might nt like he wat...work hard for wat u want"
Shir:" oh..haha..u his buddy..so u noe he like who?"
Mike:"no one in particular..so muz work hard"
Shir:"haha.let nature be ba.."

haha..now even mike also noe liao..luckly only pc n mike in coffee club noe only..hm ..c hoe things go loh..i still scare in the end i still cant forget andrew..n i m jus using darren as a replacement only..so i muz be sure of myself first ...
these few mths..since andrew went overseas..everyday..i think of him..miss him...never forget him at all...sometimes i even cried when i think of him..
Sharon: i noe he sometimes did reply mi but sometime gave mi cold shoudler...i m angry with him sometimes also..bt i jus dun now shen me li liang rang wo continue to love him so much...
maybe i willl only give up unless he personaly tell mi tat he has no more feeling anymore ...
oh yah..so where u wan to celebrate ur birthday?hotel or chalet?
hehe..so excited for u ..

today get back my PDM termtest paper..surprise..i gt higher than my FSM...quite happy with the marks...then went to count our MP micro plates...haha..the count was zero...
went to cut my hair after sch ..went opp sch there...cut short abit n also my frince...still alright..but i still like the style that i cut at malaysia...felt that i cut abit too short ..haha..how..no choice already cut liao..
now..working at the IT center now again..haha..sian..
hehe..chinese new year is coming...so excited..haha...can rest plus gather with relatives..
pc..oh yah..remember on tue..son bought his camera to work n keep taking ppl's photos..then irene ask darren to take with mi coz i was cleaning the curtery then he was jus standing at the bar counter..then darren say take for wat/...dun wan lah..then he laugh n walk away n sya that irene keep disturbing him de..i also dun noe wat he means..but when irene asked him to take with fedah...he did take leh..dun noe is good sign or bad sign..
hiaz....

went out for dinner with my family jus now..n also went to buy new year goods..
today..had my FSM lab..i was the purchaser...i was asigned to help shi jia to cook the gong bao chicken .....quite fun...was abit too starchy..but some ppl said nt starchy..then it was quite hard for us to cook coz we gt nt enough wok to cook ..but at least in the end managed to serve out...
today..i went to com lab to check my mail..finally he send mi a msg liao..at least in the msg he gt ask hows my sch n everything...but i think i say smtg wrong..he thought i felt that i m wasting my time on him n wanna break or smtg..but that was nt wat i mean.. i m scare he is the one who gt no more feeling for mi n wan to end it bbut jus never say..n thats wasting of time...but he did nt say anything abt that..so i think still ok now..
received a box of new year cookies today from my aunty..(yi ma)...so surprised loh..the cookies was sent though air plane de wo..but all ver nice ...she is really super loh..can cook n bake so well..
went to collect my O level cert today...supposed to take last yr de..bt i drag till now..haha...
my love life is really complicated now..haha..with 3 guys.jason ,darren n andrew...but i still love andrew alot...jus hat i hav a crush on darren..those sec sch gers hav crush on a guy that kind of feeling..coz i noe he like someone else..as for jason..i as treat him as buddies or big brother all the while...i hav no feeling for him...bt i dun wan to lose him as a friend..hw..pc..thanks for ur help all the while...

haha..so happy that i passed my basic theory...even though its jus the begining..but its the first step to the driving test...
went to supper with them last night last work ...quite fun...did not eat much also..pc thank for acc me..luckly they did not say anything pai sei..haha now i c him ..also pai sei..
today went shopping for tomorrow's FSM lab ingredients..with hui shan they all co zi m the purchaser...quiet fun....took abt 2hrs to buyeverythings...
then did the micro tests today..still alright.....was nt happy with her also..but i jus keep quiet loh..tired of it liao..plus i was ver tired today..no energy to say her..
deb..i know u can do it de...u canvercome yourself de....slowly loh...u n him still can be friend...
Sharon...thanks for being at my side always..esp for the MP problem..i noe my temper is nt good.. i need ur help to control mi...thanks...

jus came back from sch..did PDM scale up today..everything was quiet ok..sch was alright today,..
but going to work tonight...dun noe whether is jason working tonight or nt..i ver scare to face him now..so pai sei loh..
i jus wrote a long msg of my feeling to him...hope he will understand my feelings...n will make a decision ...be fair to both of us..even though i dun wish to give up but if it realy come to no choice then i hav to face it liao..no choice...zhang tong bu ru duan tong...even i hav his person but his heart is no longer with mi ..no point...but i jus feel ver down these few days..gers..hope u understand...when u c i suddenly ver quiet...sorry..i jus cant stopt thinking of him...
i noe i m to0 weak...
this week again will be busy with MP thing liao..sian...hope no more micro growth...
deb..do take care of yourself k...eat of chinese herby soup...it helps...
new year is around the corners..bt dun noe y i jus dun hav the mood to celebrate it...