this week was really a tiring week for mi..cz i m working morning everyday...its so tiring loh. sharon ..sorry..u hav being asking mi out these few days ..but i keep cant make it..sorry..i really tired.
glenna: ger..i totally agreed with u that guys r all jerk...all good guys r either married or hav gf liao...they always take adv that we gers will do anything for them n will always love them...
now ..we should show to them that without guys we still can led a happy life..n also they r nt the only guy in the world!!
i hate ah fei now...!!!! he is the one who said want to be friend even after we break off..n now...i hav been smsing him for 3days n he did nt reply a single msg at all..he jus only reply mi jus now saying that if nothing impt dun sms him..he said he hate smsing..even his own friends he also dun like..wat dame lah...friends cant sms each other de meh..friend cant guan xin each other de meh..now i really c his real image liao...guys r all the same..b4 break off they will say after break off still can be friend but when broke off liao..his attuide totaly changed...nt even a sms loh..
pc: dun feel bad liao..after a while i wil be ok liao..gerald n others guys inside the kitchen will make my life full of laughter de...but anyway thanks..i also feel abit bad that after dorcas n rachel were here..i m more close with them..shared with them more abt i n ah fei things n relationship things..maybe jus happen to click well ba...nt that i dun trust u ..but also dun noe how to tell u ..actually gerald was the first one who know..cz he keep tensing mi with the guys in the kitchen..then he said ah fei's age n my the nearest..then he said ah fei nt bad..then he started everything liao..i think the reason i gt crush on ah fei is abt the same as sheila..maybe we c him..quiet quiet like that..good boy...but hiaz..actually he is nt...nvm..everything is now all past liao...n ger..we still need each other 's fu zhi..n support to continuing working....one day with kumaran there we will nt be happy de...hope they will find someone good n transfer him away..
i miss my ploy friends...i miss the times that i n sharon keep going to the lab to make our ice cream...haha...miss having long hours break..then we will go out walk walk..even for a movie...miss having a goup of friends sitting at the cafe there eating n talking...miss alot alot of things..miss deb...glenna..sharon n ting..
they r still my best buddies in mylife
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1:00 AM
thanks gers.. for all ur care n concern..i m better now liao..even though i still feel sad but i know i had tried my best liao..i just let everything be nature be...i still to c him everyday at work..so i had no choice but to pretend nothing happen n be friend with him..n play with him..
i feel that i m unless..i m alwasys being easily affected by relationship prob...y cant i jus concentrate on my work..jus work n work...dun think of relationship at all..
i muz control myself...hiaz...
dorcas is leaving soon..i really bu she de..she is really a good friend to mi in coffee club...other than pc,.,..she is going back to malaysia..i will sure miss her alot de..she has been my listening ear for these few months n a good friend to mi..but anyway ...hope she will do well in her studies in malaysia..
as for rachel n ming hui..i know they will come back to work part time de..hmm..n singapore is ver small..we could still meet up on day de..
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8:35 AM
hmm..one week never update my blog liao..alot of things happened to mi this week..
actually..last mon. i n ah fei started to get close to each other..then he told mi that he got feeling for mi..n started sweet talk to mi...then we talked on phone nearly everynight..then on wed night he sent mi hm...we were ver close by then ..then he dated mi out on thurs..we both were working morning that day,then we both went hm first n we meet up at night for movie n dinner...we had a wonderful night...jus like a lovely couple...then we went to work together that few days..n he sent mi hm that few days also.....on mon n tue morning..i went to his house ..we had a fun time together..we talk abt our feelings n alot of things..everything was fine until tue night...that gerald dun noe y went to tell sheila that he suspect that i n ah fei is together now..then sheila was ver sad n hurt..she even called ah fei to confirm...then she was crying when she called them ..she even called the outlet to ask mi abt it..i felt so bad abt it also..for hurting her,...somemore i treat her as a true friend...she is the first friend that i made in the work place loh...ah fei felt ver bad after that also..he keep saying that he hav done wrong liao..but he did nt say wat...then on wed..he treat mi ver cold...actually i intend to wait for himto finish work de cz i work till 7pm ma..but in the end i did nt ...cz i think i should let him cool down n think over first..then on thurs night i asked him to wait for mi to finish work ..but he said he nex day working at 10am..so at last he did nt wait for mi..then after work ..he called mi..saying that he did smtg wrong liao..he said we should be as friends rather then couple..he said he was yi shi cong dong to start the relationship that time..i felt so hurt when i hurt that...he said he will go back malaysia in sept n he rather end it now so that i wun get so hurt...but i was ver hurt loh..y cant he treasure the time together till sept comes..he even said that his feelings for mi is getting lesser n lesser liao..i keep saying ...y nt give each other another 2weeks..if after 2weeks..the relationship still dun work out..then we break off..in the end he said ok .if this way i will feel better then ok..but on fri morning i went to his house to look for him to hope that we could say things out clearer face to face ..i did nt tell him that i will go down..i only called him when i m outside his house...i reached at abt10am..but..in the end...he said after 2weeks the result will still be the same..cz the feeling for mi is no longer there...i cried in front of him...but after serious thinking..i told him..let mi acc him for the last time that day then we will end the relationship n become friend...n he even gave mi his necklace with a cross on it..as a memory..y.y.until this point u still wan to treat mi this way.....until now..i still cant get over with it...he is the first guy i cried for n dun wan to let go ever since andrew was away....i even thought of giving up on andrew cz of him..i dun noe y..for him..i give in alot..i know he is those type who dun noe how to zhu dong de..so most of the time i m the one who make the first move..i already close one eye on his low edu, not zhu dong, nt active type...but this is wat i get in return...now i dun noe how to face him everyday at work..but i tell myself maybe cz zhu ding i will still end up with andrew cz in this half a yr i did nt meet a better guy than him or even together with another guy till andrew comes back..maybe its all zhu ding ba,...then like these i dun need to fa whether how to tell andrew abt i n ah fei or even scare of hurtting andrew..
cz of all these..i hav been making mistakes at work..i forgotten to place order for cakes of today n tomorrow..i felt to bad loh..i noe azman n alex n kumaran muz be ver angry with mi..things at work wasn't ver good also,..having kumaran n raymond in my shift spoilt my day loh..they like to interrupt my way of managing my shift..n keep scolding the staffs for nothing..n raymond was nt happy on mi that i ordered too much purees n takes up alot of his fridge..really..ordering is really a headache...sometimes will forget to order this sometimes will order too much of that..i already was ver careful to make sure i order everything liao..but in the end i still forgotten to order the cakes..i hav nt been on my mind these few days...oh man...cannot liao..i still to get back on tract liao...
I went off @
12:41 PM
finally its sat..n tomorrow is sun..my off day..
hmm..hav nt update my blog for abt one week liao...smtg really dun noe wat to write so did nt update..
alot of things happened at work this week..esp we the managemnet team..himan was being asked to leave(fired)..i realy dun noe to pity him or nt..cz sometimes i think he might nt mean wat he did or say..maybe he jus happen to make a mistake n nt purposly take the money de..the whole thing goes like this..on the 5th of may..i work morning shift with him..he went to the bank..then after we finish handing over to pc n kumaran at abt 3pm..he told us that he top up the e-zlink card in the morning but forgotten to take the receipt but already open the petty cash liao..n will go to the mrt station to get from them the receipt..nobody suspect anything until mon..azman wanted to clear the petty cash vouchers..but could nt do so cz the petty cash that himan opened that day still dun hav any receipt..then azman went to ask himan..then himan said that he will settle the petty cash vouchers..ok then .then on one of the day himan did the petty cash vouchers thing..he put aside the voucher of the top up of e-zlink card ..then he said he will go find the receipt cz he dun noe put where liao...but actually..azman did went to checked with the mrt on the e- link card history..n found that there is nt top up on the 5th may at all..so then azman knew that himan was lieing liao.n when azman asked himan whether did he top up the e-link card or nt ..he said yes..then on thurs..azman n alex spoke to himan n gave him a letter to ask him leave..n no longer in the company...cz in the end himan even threw away the petty cash voucher that he opened..its wrong to threw away..even if there is no receipt n himan is willing to pay for the top up then azman is allowed to void the voucher..but nt threw it away..
hiaz..now he is nt working liao..hope the staff will nt ask too much.we can only say he found a better job outside...hope that he will nt create another story to the malay guys...
but i suppose that among we the managemnet team will feel more secure now..dun need to scare that shortage of money liao...hope everything will be fine after that...
hope he will do well outside also..cz as a friend..he is a good guy..only nt a good supervisor..
PC:
i knew u r ver irritated with ah leong they all ..i understand hope u feel..cz i also being tease by them everyday..hear too much also sian liao...treat it as nothing liao...but for u is maybe cz..ah leong too straight forward n open...he shld nt do that loh..every gers will be scare away by him de..nt u only..haha..if he nt like this ..u still can consider hor...since u nt attached..
hope we gt more shift together..haha..i like working with u rather than azman or kumaran..
deb, sharon, glenna n ting:
i know its hard for all of us top meet together..cz of our work ...but i m sure we wil be able to meet up one day de..as long as our hearts r together..
gers..jia you..k..lets work hard together...
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12:11 PM
on wed night...kumaran called mi to ask mi to be abit late on thurs..to let himan take over the cashier...so i only board the mrt at around 6.10am..but in the end i still reach there b4 7am..n himan is nt there still yet..he only reach at around 7.10am..i lie to him the i forget to bring my key..then after we went in ..i jus let him count the cashier money himself..he asked mi count the safe money..ok..i count,....its tally..i dun noe abt outside.he did nt asked mi to count again..but he said tally...then when azman came..he told mi that he put in $8 excess more..so thet wanna test whether is himan honest to say that there is excess of $8..but he did nt..but in the end when handing over that time gt i think $7 smtg excess..
hmm..i still make mistakes during lunch time..i forgot to key in the 50% discount for desserts,...dame..
then the management team had a mtg at 3pm..wah...it last till 5pm..then i faster rush hm to change n then faster come out to meet sharon n glenna..
we had a meaningful night..we talked alot alot of our new working life...n abt our friends..our love prob..n xin shi..we r jus like sisters...we know each other in n out...miss them so much..if can..i think we can even talked though the whole night..so sad that the deb n ting cant join us...really..friends that u know in poly r still the best n most trustworthy...they will be ur frineds forever...i gave sharon a belated birthday present..i put in 21 photos (from baby to now)....hope she like it..its so called a memory for her..
my 2 buddies n friends all advise mi to let go cz he really dun show any concern to mi loh...esp y he gt time for his cousin bt nt for mi..i m his gf leh..how can he do this to mi...i jus went in to friendster jus now..he logged in yesteday ..but did nt msg mi again loh..i really cant take it liao..gers..i also want to find a guy who really love mi..but i jus cant find one...after darren that incident i scare liao..fear liao...
but actually all the while i tell ppl that i gt no bf..true wat..i gt him but jus like dun hav like that...maybe he alreay dun treat mi as his gf liao..who knows...
I went off @
12:30 AM
today is my off day..wah so fast off again..sian..i last sat jus off then now tue off again..
my samsung keep giving mi prob..sometimes it auto on and off..i also dun noe y..iwent to let them service few times liao still the same prob..but when they service it , they were using their own batt there,...so they said it might be my batt prob...but one batt is $42 leh..some ppl said its better to trade in this phone n go buy a nokia..coz nokia is better..can last longer..hmm..still considering now..
wah.past two days the sales were like wah!!!more than $4k...alex was very happy..yesterday night was a gers night closing..first time all gers doing closing...then somemore yesterday rashid was sick..then we c around 8pm..it was very quiet..so we let him go hm.. who knows..yesterday was a late crowd...then this two days i working closing..i tried to do my last order for food at 9.30pm cz alex told mi that the big boss might be standing somewhere looking at us..we dun know de..so cant last order too early..actually i intend to hav the last order at around 9.15pm de...i also wan to go hm early ma..but no choice loh..then alex also said he will be saying this again in this thurs mtg...
hehe..we will be mtg this week..so excited..cz we gers hav nt caught up with each other for a ver long time liao..i mean i , sharon, glenna, deb n ting...we muz hav lots n lots of things to share with each other..
i m so happy that i hav PC as a friend...cz she is nt only a good person to work with at work but also a good friend ...she hav helped mi alot at work...being my side when all the prob occurs...pc..thanks..
glenna n ting n jimmy..r going to hav their attachment this sem..hope they will do well...n like the work..glenna..i know u like hospital things..n nutrition de..so u muz be ver happy..hope ting is also happy to go pizza hut..dun worry..no matter where u work..u will sure learn something from it de..slowly u will c hows the working world like..
hmm..now i hav slowly get to know more abt the outside working world liao..how to get along n work with diff ppl..ppl that u like n ppl that u dun like..nt easy..n facing politic prob..money prob..
sharon..i undestand..i know..i m already doing it..i m knowning more n more ppl after i work..but most of them r malaysian..hehe..gt one nt bad leh...hehe..
deb..welcome..hope u doing well..dun too busy yourself with ballet n work k..dun over work ..remember to hav enough rest..take care k ger..
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12:32 AM
i really still cant accept the fact that wat dawis had done.when pc told mi on thurs morning..i really cant believe it..i quickly went to buy newspaper n read abt it...at the first his face was cover by his hand so i think it might be a different guy with the same name...then yesterday newspaper showed dawis face n even mentioned that he is a science lecturer from tp...they even interviewd few tp lecturers n students..everyone said that he is a good lecturer..ya loh..he is really a good lecturer..y muz this thing happen to him./.y on earth of so many guys in singapore ....he muz be the unlucky one...he realy dun look like those kind of guy loh..
somemore he was my fyp supervisor..he treated us very good ....was always there for us when we gt prob...he has a kind heart...of so many guy lecturer ..he is the best loh.....will help us in our work...n give us advice n hints...
no matter how i look ..i still dun believe that he is this kind of guy....oh no..i still cant over it...
a pity to lose a good lecturer..but ...when someone make mistake he still need to be punish de...maybe this is nt wat he wan also..many ppl always only regret n felt sorry after they made the mistakes..
hiaz..
he has nt been msging mi from 12days liao..i felt so hurt when i know that he gt call his cousin these few days loh..y he gt the time to call his cousin but know time to call mi..nt even msg loh..dun noe wat is he thinking...i know he is still fear of our relationship..esp our religion prob..he think i nt scared meh..jus that i dun wan to think abt it now..cz i know no matter wat i wun force him to convert de..i will let everything be nature..if its god's will to let him convert..god will call him de...if nt ..i force him also no use...y he still dun understand my ku xin...haiz..sometime i really feel ver tired of waiting..
sometimes i really felt so weak n tired n wan someone to yi kao...i feel worse when i work closing eveyday..cz when i wake up my parents nt at hm ..then when i reach hm from work..they r already sleeping..i feel so lonely..evryone hav times when they r weak n need someone to teng n yi kao de...
n all my friends also nt by my side...nt like poly time ..sharon is always by my side ....
hiaz..i also dun know..y these few days i feels so down n weak...
actually i meet few guys who r nt bad..but sometimes i scare tat i will hurt andrew ...i dun wan to hurt him...but i do so much for him..does he know..no he dun noe...all he cares is his work loh...
when i told my mum abt him..she also said yes he gt future..but muz c whether he gt the heart or nt...she asked mi nt to wait..she say nt harm knowing more guys..slowly choose...
dun noe y sometimes..i suddenly feel of settling down..n wan to hav my own family...
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5:42 AM
