all these days r all working n working/...last week had alots of fun liao..so this week muz rest liao..cannot keep going out liao..
glenna:
ger..i totally understand how u r feeling now..i had jus been though wat u r going though now..i also love andrew ver deeply...but in the end i gt nothing..i only gt false promise n sweet talks from him only...maybe its true that we gers always hope to gt full commitment from guys in the relationship..n we will put our full heart into it but they dun..which makes us ver sad n disappointed...maybe we hav to learn to let go n not to put in to so much hope into a guy..
Rachel:
sis...u also muz be strong k..u had made this decision many times liao..but in the end u still did nt manage to do it..u still xin ruan when he come n talk to u..ur friends around u all ask u to let go ...
ger..really nt worth to give up ur bf cz of him..since he dun wan to giev up his wife..i know he is a good guy..any gers who know him will be melt by his sweet talk, care n concern to a ger de..but the only bad thing is no matter wat..he is already married..ger..i know its ver hard to giev up on a guy that u love n gt to c him often at work..but i know u can do it de..c now i already totally no feeling for ah fei liao..k..sis..i will support u no matter wat decision u make k..
sharon:
ger..i feel that after we grad..our distance drifted apart..we r not as close as b4 liao..dun noe y n wat happen leh...so sad...
PC:
oh ger..thanks for ur cookies..its really nice...i also wanna thank u for all ur help at work,..u really a good friend n a good listening ear to mi..
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2:50 AM
thanks everybody..i really enjoyed my 21st birthday celebration this yr..really..
last friday..sharon, deb, glenna, jimmy n jj celebrated my brithday for mi.i meet them at taka, crystal jade..the food there so so only..esp sharon's duck noodles was nt nice..the duck meat was ver rubbery..tthey even bought a birthday cake of mi..i was to hapy..a mango cake..it was a nice cake...thanks..
deb went off quite early..then after that followed by jj..but after that..jimmy bought us to the orange julies at pargoon ..he work there during attachment period..he make drinks for us n even gave us popcorn to eat..haha..at last zhi hao n eugene also came to join us...we went to zhi hao's work place to eat supper..haah..wah..that night realy keep eating n eating..haha...we talked n chill till around 1 smtg midnight..then i shared cab with zhi hao n jimmy to go hm..n reached hm at around 2am..wah..then next day work morning..only sleep for 3hours..
wah
i was super tired on sat morning..somemore kumaran MC..then i was alone in the floor n melina in the bar..wah..i thnk i rerally super ..haha
then i taha till 11am then ishak came in..then i faster rush to the bank..luckly the luch was nt crowded..or else i sure died de..hehe..
then i went hm n rest for a while after work... then on sat night..went out to celebrate with rachel, sunny n ah fei..
we went to eat at jack place...hmm the steak there really nt bad..after eating..we went to take neo prnts..then after that rachel n sunny went to watch movie..bt i was ver tired liao..so i went hm..ah fei walk mi to the mrt station..he also going hm cz he working morning on sun..rachel..ya..my wish for last time really came true liao..
but now i really feel nothing..
when i n him walked to the mrt..we dun talked much too..hehe..dun know y..
then next day..sunday,...i , my borthday , kai xin n her brother went to the marina south to watch the fireworks...super alot of ppl loh...then i saw francis there..his son is so cute..hehe..saw alot of army guys there..wah..alot ver charm n cute de..hehe..
then after watching we went to eat steamboat there..wah..we eat till 10pm..we realy had a fun time together...
my birthday this yr was ver fun n i really enjoyed it. esp all the celebration with different groups of friends..all r my good friends..
dun worry gers..
i will look forward for my career..
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2:14 AM
andrew broke up with mi liao..he wan to let mi go..ok things happen from mon..
in the morning , he msg mi n asked mi nt to msg or call him these two days cz he will be in the armed room working n standby for NDP...
then i did nt..
but now tue afternoonm he called mi n msg mi where r u ..then at that time was busy so i did nt know my hp ring..so when i called back later..he never pick up liao..then he reply asking mi to stop calling him...i can sense that he was angry liao..then i keep on msging him..to say sorry to him..but he never replied nor answer my call..then on wed midnight he msg mi this msg: sorry guess i use to my freedom n my commitment to work i had to let go do u know that day due to see all those sms got scolding from boss i sorry take it is my fault as your parents say u scare no one want u meh alsou got suitor after u too i realy want to make a career in this sorry i not good for u "
i was so shocked n sad when i see that msg..i din expect that he will say this things...then i keep on msging him..saying all good thing n sweet talk..but he jus dun ans my call n the last msg he sent was : " can u concentrate at your work thank work toward your own future k don't because of this there is a lack all the best"
then he din contact mi anymore..i cried in front of my mother last night n told her wat happen..she said no point being with him since he treat u so badly..she said dun worry lah ..u r still young..can better guys..she said its better to find a guy who loves u more that u love him..its better..
thanks mum..
gers..everyone..i felt better now..
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12:00 AM
wah..more than 1 weeks never update my blog liao..haha...
ok..lets start from last tue 2/8/05...its a special day for mi..that night i called to andrew's house..his mother picked up n said he is nt back hm yet..then i asked her..is it that he is already back from overseas..n his mother said ya..then his mother asked mwho m i ..then i told her i m his gf..then i also asked her to ask andrew to call mi when he is back hm..then at abt 12am..after i reached hm from worked..Andrew called mi..i was so shocked. at first i still dun dared to answer..then he called again..we talked for a while..then he drove to my house understair..oh my god..i was surprise that he still remember where's my house..then i went understairs..we sit in his car n talked things out....
he said he was back for two days only..n was thinking how to settle our prob..n his own work prob n stress..but in the end he still decided to look for mi...he felt guilty that he should nt avoid the prob n mi anymore..he said he really zai hu mi n our relationship , thats y he hav been thinking abt our prob seriously..n he also dun wish to lose mi...
we talked for a while then he sent mi back hm...
then on wed..i was working mid shift..till 7pm..then after that andrew came over to fetch mi..we went to Holland Village to eat..we walked around HV..actually i wanted to find Coffee club de..but cant find...dun know where is it..then at last we went to eat at a resturant call cozy palace..its a place abt tea..food cook with tea leaves n more....
we talked abt alot of things after dinner..we talked abt our main prob(religion)..n how we spend our past 8mths..n our feelings for each other now..n our future..we promised each other tat we dun talk abt the past anymore..we should talk abt our future..the future is more impt...
ya..we r back together..
then on last fri night..i went genting with my choir friends...n came back on sun afternoon..i shared the room with my brother n his gf n her brother..we played alot of exciting games..indoor n outdoors..i tried nearly most of the games..the most scary game i also tired..haha...i felt so ahppy n satistfied..that i had tried them ..
haha/..i really enjoyed myself there.i even played casino..n won some money..hehe...nt bad ..
i spent abt RM220..haha
ok..i think thats all for today..hehe
I went off @
11:46 AM
i last sat was my bad day..ver bad..everything was jus nt right for mi..i keep keyying in wrong order..was ver blur that day..then even drop a plate of squid ink pasta in front of the guest...oh no..wat m i doing...alex saw everything..i think he muz be ver disappointed with mi liao..oh no...
yesterday is my off day..i jus went shopping with my mother..walk here n there..then came hm loh..actually planning to go kbox with gerald , rachel, ming hui de..but rachel n minghui cant finish their proj so cant come out..nvm lah..next time ba..
this morning i received a msg from pc..kumaran is resigning!!!really shock news..n she is taking over the planning of rooster...but i sudenly feel so jealous..why she is getting all teh jobs..she is in-charge of the tips n now the rooster ..is it alex n azman think that i cant do it??hiaz..dun know..they jus gave mi in-charge of the full-timers n part timers their part time claims only...sorry pc..
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12:28 AM
